fate is my life

2006-11-10T23:43:00.000+08:00

1. Sex before marriage?:depends
2. Gay Marriagespeechless..
3. Lowering the drinking age?no?4. Abortionno...
5. Recycling?maybe
So Far in '06 I hadhuh ... wtf is this talking about lolz?1Gotten shitty grades:no...2fallen out of love...........NO
3Done something you swore never to doyea
4Laughed until you criedwif my laopo yes =)
5Went behind your parents backyea?
6Lost a friendyea .. but i dun giv a fuck as long my laopo is wif me =)
7Kept your new years resolutionyea
8Forgot your new years resolutionno
9Met someone who changed your lifeyup , my laopo =)
10Changed your outlook on lifeyup , cuz of my laopo again =)
11Left the statehuh?
12Lost someoneno?
13Gotten close to someoneyup. my laopo
14Given up something important to youno..
15Found out who your true friends wereyea
1. Hows your heart lately ?good =) .. cuz of my laopo
2. When was the last time you went out ?juz now
3. What was the latest movie you saw ?DEATH-NOTE
4. where the last place you went to .my laopo's hse?
5. Miss someone ?YEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
6. What made you smile today ?MY LAOPO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
7. The last time you fall in love ?NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!8. Ever love someone so deep ?YEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
9. What is your status right now ?MARRIED!!!!!!!!!!1
10. Did you dream last night ?ya
11. What are you doing this morning at 7am ?waiting for my laopo half aslp ? =X
12. what are you doing this morning at10am ?waiting for my laopo's call
13. what is a country you will ever want tovisit ?ANTARTICA...im juz jkin got alot XDD
14. How many piercings do you have ?none..
15. What is the last thing you ate ?chicken drumstick?16. What song are you listening to rightnow ?nth
17. Who is your bestest friend of theoppositesex ?nobody..
18. Do you have a nick name ?yea..FATE WARHEART
19. Things you need to do everyday ?kiss my laopo..love my laopo..miss my laopohug my laopodo everthing wif my laopo..20. Are you a type of person who easilygetshurt ?ya..
21. The last thing you said to one of yourfriends ?er.... its been quite long since i said something 2 frens..
22. The last person who called you ?LAOPO!!!!!!!!!!!!!
23. The last person that you chat withonline ?LAOPO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!24. The last person you talked with ?LAOPO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
25. What cant you live without ?LAOPO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
26. What things you want to do now ?be wif my LAOPO EVERY SECOND!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-11-10T23:05:00.000+08:00

01] Is there someone who you like at themoment?NO
O2] Have you ever given or been givenroses?erm goin to?
O3] What is your all-time favorite romancemovie?not sure XDD
O4] How many times can you honestly sayyou've been in love?1!!!!
O5] Do you believe that everyone has asoul-mate?NAH .. cuz some ppl r stupid...
O6] Do you think that you should be friendsfirst?ya?
O7] Have you ever had your heart broken?ya...=.=
O8] What do you think about long-distancerelationship?it sux ...
O9] Your thoughts on online relationships?diao =.=
1O] Would you rather date someone fiveyears older or younger?younger ...
11] Have you ever seen a friend as morethan a friend?yup i saw my laopo more den a fren at 1 time XDD
12] Do you believe the statement, "Oncea cheater always a cheater"?no?
13] How many kids do you want to have?3!!!!!!!!
14] Do you usually fall for a wrongboy/girl or the right boy/girl?right girl.. cuz my laopo is the only 1 i will ever love =)
15] What is your favorite color(s)?platinum shift silver, black, blue , red , any colour my laopo likes =)
16] What are your views on gay marriage?speechless....
17] Have you ever broken someonesheart?erm...yes =( i broke my laopo's heart b4 .. i hope she will love me
18] Imagine you're 79 & your spouse justdied, would you re-marry?NO . i will forever love my laopo ...
19] At what age did you start noticing theopposite sex?erm...12?
2O] What song do you want to hear atyour wedding?wedding song?

2006-11-07T10:58:00.000+08:00

today wake up hor miss my laopo lots..
den i dream tat hor wen i slpin she beside me holding me..
so nice hor de feeling...
den morning i goin go and see my laopo ler..
see my brothers wake up use toilet lolz
den they say hilow korkor...
den i say lolz ? hi...
den after tat i go find laopo ler...
whole journey 2 my laopo's house i keep thinkin of her tat was all i could think about ..
den morning i wake my laopo up .....
she so cute wen she's aslp ...
den i call my form teacher 2 get my report book ..
den they say she in meeting ..
den later i call hor ..
they say not in skool ..
den im like wtf ????
so muz wait till tml den i can call her bah.
my laopo is only thing tat i keep thinkin about ...
i hope she will forget it aready...
everday she keep say the sad things ...
wonder wen she will forget it...
its all fate bah...
wen i wan 2 scold somebody my laopo say dun la ...
wen i dunwan scold .. they on9 ort wat ...
feel veri uneasy ....
nvm bah.. this feeling i shall keep ..
i love my laopo ...
miss her lots ...
Joseph will foreva love AnAn

2006-11-07T10:50:00.000+08:00

me goin 2 change blogskin soon liao..
hope u all will like my new blog...
me goin 2 make wen i got time..
juz now call the teacher den she not in skool ..
and i wan my laopo forget about the sad things....

2006-11-03T17:38:00.000+08:00

every passing moment , i miss u till my heart's despairs.i wanna tell u how much i miss u but u aint there.the night crys , the wolf howls , the cold wind blows the night away alone.i've no where to go , no where to hide eluded by darkness i wait for u .laopo i juz wan u to noe tat i miss u.for without ur touch , the days grows cold and lonly

2006-11-03T16:09:00.001+08:00

third time posting today hor ?
juz called my laopo earlier..
she said she forgot 2 call me ..
was kinda sad 2 hear this buts its alrite..
juz hope she's havin fun ..
but deep inside im sad and missin her..
but i cant let this make her sad cant i ...
so im juz waiting for her .....
dunwan blog for now ..
head feels heavy...
meaning im kinda giddy..
blog later or next day

2006-11-03T14:06:00.000+08:00

haixz...
second time i post hor today?
now2 pm marh..
i keep calling my laopo ..
burden she nvr repli me .
wat happen leh ? is she ignoring me ?
she dunwan me disturb her ?
or she is juz annoyed by me leh ?
so many questions but i hav no answer
haixz..
waiting for her 2 call me

2006-11-03T09:49:00.000+08:00

today wake up hor...
call my laopo wan make her happy happy
den she tell me got some ppl spam her blog?
den i juz wake up hor ...like repli keep say orh orh
den now she angry cuz i nvr comfort her ....
keep scold and scold and scold....
pass few days we keep qurreling den she keep scold bad word 2 me
she keep say i treat her like shit den other ppl veri good
i getting tired soon....
say things which r not....
and hor the fucker who spam my laopo de blog hor im goin 2 hunt u down!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
today goin 2 miss my laopo alot..
she go wif her frens play lan...
hope she enjoy herself
me waiting for her at home...
missin her so much ..
and she scold me say i nvr comfort her...
she in the first place keep say i no mood wen im not..
say my chracter is like tat ?
everything she said 2 me....
i remeber deep in my heart.....
it will nvr go away de .....
all the pain will be kept within for nobody 2 see....
me hope also can get job...
so can give my laopo her first birthday surprise ...
but dunno she treat this like shit anot leh .
cuz she keep say i treat her like shit..
wen i find tat asshole..im gonna RIP HIM APART!!!!!!!
hope she enjoy herself later..
she keep scolding me .. i keep quiet..
very soon me will get tired de...
so hope she will stop scolding me

Fate-lives-on
Joseph~heart-shattered-angel

2006-10-28T09:00:00.000+08:00

yoz all...
so long nvr post ler hor??
past few days not bad bahx.den watch the death-note wif my laopo leh..nice for me bahx..
the kira cool sia XDD..den hor on wednesday my laopo got hamster..den hor since then laopo dun dare carry the hamster cuz scared..laopo dun need scared marh?like u hold me like tat .can marh.laopo so sweet.hehe..den yesterday we go the vivocity den the place funny lolz.den hor i kiss my laopo in the tv at toysaurs lolz not too sure how spell.den the top floor like other county like tat sia.hahaden my laopo pei me go job interview.at city hall mac there.. den me and laopo also got eat the burger king.den so fun being wif my laopo..
sry for qurreling wif u laopo for the past few days.. wo ai ni..
hope deep in ur heart ur noe tat i always love u deeply

2006-10-07T11:17:00.000+08:00

lolz today so funny sia..
saw the bittchh's blog...
and saw she say gonna let it off?
wtf?im not gonna let it off..
on friday im gonna go find u galz.
u gonna pay big time...
wen the time comes .. we see who has the last laugh

2006-09-28T14:58:00.000+08:00

nvr update for so long liao wor
me love laopo 1314
i miss her leh
den i also worried about my laopo
cuz my laopo de right ear cannot hear properly
den i worried marh
den me wan take care of my laopo
den laopo muz also take care of her marh ?
i love my laopo leh me love her 1314
den wonder wat she doin now leh
den got miss me anot ...
but i noe hor she love me =)
so tml will go see my laopo after skool
tml goin back 2 skool liao after so long
i miss my laopo
i love my laopo
hope she will be ok
im worried about my laopo
i love u laopo =)

2006-09-21T18:36:00.000+08:00

gonna colapse soon
but nobody will noe
i will be the only 1 handling the pain

2006-09-21T15:32:00.000+08:00

today writing blog.
wat 2 write ah
k la.... 2 days nvr slp liao
everynite think of my laopo
yesterday get scolded by her....
den i hope she ok .. den in morning call her
den she still no mood ... after skool call her also..
she also mad and scold me....
everything my fault...
even my laopo muz scold me...
cannot talk nicely de....
i wan go watch death-note leh the show..
i think the show not bad...
i was thinking giv my laopo surprise go watch movie
but now dunno wan do anot..
also dunno she wan go anot...
juz now laopo hang up the pone so harshly
den say talk 2 me wen 5 pm+
now me lonly liao
i play Ko keep dc..
play gunz lor ...
gunz also cannot play..
haixzz...
bo pain la....
signin out~
Joseph~Fate~lonly boy

2006-09-19T16:37:00.000+08:00

so long nvr write blog ler
so many things happen
juz want LAOPO to noe tat i love u
and the road i walk will be for u
i dun giv a damn wat other ppl think
if they wan 2 run me down
den bring it on
im gonna be headstrong ler
i dun care wat ppl say
i will walk the road through
i will be wif my laopo at the end
if u dun like it .
u can fuck off...or u can come and face me
but i aint gonna back down
i'll take u on!!!!!!
i only love my laopo
miss her lots
im headstrong 2 take on any1
i noe tat u r wrong
so dun need 2 giv me ur shit
laopo hope ur happy being wif me i love u
muacks
laopo wo ai ni 1314
Joseph~ ur laogong aka Fate

2006-08-26T23:40:00.000+08:00

i miss darldarl...
i love darldarl...
LOVE HER 1314

2006-07-18T07:31:00.000+08:00

today in the morning i call mine darldarl .....
i asked mine darldarl something she would normally say yes de
but today for the first time .... she said no eh
i hear wan cry liao ...... but i cannot cry
wat she said really meant alot 2 me wen she always say yes i would be happy
den suddenly no den i dunno ... mine darldarl still thinkin about yesterday
i got no mood 2 do anithing let alone go 2 skool now lor . mine darldarl nvr pick up mine calls
i got no1 to talk 2 . the 3% really counts 2 me ... but she juz said no . haixz
i write after skool la . me suay lor today whole day ruin liao .....
back from skool ler . so fucking crap la
me no mood do anithin . cant do anithin properly
me still thinkin y darldarl change eh .
cuz we qurrel ? but it nvr lead 2 this
haixz so many questions but no answer
haixzzz mine heart not broken but sad
in class i sob.... den mine fren ask y
i bo chap ... cuz i dunwan 2 talk 2 anibody
i dun hav the mood . i wan 2 be alone for awhile
dunno wen i can calm down .
yuan lai na ke 3% means so much 2 me
den he keep pester me....
den i whack his face till his nose got blood
den the teacher wan punish me
i dun giv a damn .
i can hardly care ......
i feel mine darldarl suddenly come hard hearted leh
i dunwan her like tat . i wan her soft hearted like last time
i wan her be herself.. i dunwan her 2 change like now
i need 2 hear her voice . i need 2 talk 2 her
i now crying mine heart out... cuz i sad
i now like got feeling tat nth will change mine darldarl ler
i feel so sad lor...... i wan her be herself i dunwan her like this
haixz hope she will be the same . and maybe calm down
and tell me y leh ? or maybe giv it 2 me .
i now waiting for her ... haixz
so sad mine day ~
Joseph~ darldarl

darldarl so sweet !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

2006-07-17T22:15:00.001+08:00

darldarl so sweet !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ( like mine title )

today mine heart broke into so many fucking pieces

2006-07-13T15:18:00.000+08:00

today hors
i still sick . den nvr go skool i wake up so late sia
den nvr call mine darldarl . i missed her so much
i wanted 2 tell her . on saterday i hav a surprise for u
but i call her after her skool . she still got detension
den she tell me tml no project . den i happy marhx
cuz tml our aniversary . but den if we go out can only go out maybe 4-5 hours.
den on saterday can go out till 9 pm +. den she tell me saterday got project .
mine heart so pain . den after i put down pone . i start crying till siao
i cannot control la . i plan all surpirse ler . wan make her so happy .
den in the end cannot . i dun even think i can wake her up in the morning
i now heart broken . i waiting for her dismiss . tats all for now
Joseph~

today veri wat .......

2006-07-10T17:55:00.000+08:00

today i gastric den nvr go skool
den darldarl angry wif me ... b4 i can explain
den after skool we qurrel . den scold til so wat
i regret qurreling . should hav juz let her scold me
i promise thing i dunwan 2 break them
den she say till like i wan break
den i sad lor . hmm nvr happen liao la
we ok ler . but now i damn tuu lan wif her bro and dad
i say wan whack him . den darldarl say loud wan scare her bro
den her bro go hit her den her dad also go hit her
den her bro call mine darldarl bitch . i wan go whack him
yesterday wen got chance . nvr whack him
nvm la . mine angry will build up .
den wen got chance all hell will break loose
i will go back the way i was wen i was known as deathnote
i will whack him till nobody noes
den for mine darldarl dad i dunno la
nvm la dun say about this ler
i juz wan mine darldarl noe i miss her veri much and i love her muacks
darldarl i love u =D

so sweet today XDD

2006-07-02T23:13:00.001+08:00

today so nice worx
darldarl im sry i argue u again
i wun argue wif u ler
today we go bugis walk walk
den go clark quey go liang court
den the place so freaking spooky sia
den i alone in the toilet den the toilet keep flushing
den i faster go out den we go city hall
den eat burger king . den we go fountain wait for the water stop
den so long . den we go sit around . den talk talk .
den me and darldarl argue . haixz i really regret lor
nvm ler . its over ler .we happy again . den we go near the fountain den talk talk
den we go find bus .but dun hav worx =.=
den we take mrt . tats all lor .darldarl so sweet cute and chio lor
i love her foreva . =)

so sweet today XDD

2006-07-02T23:13:00.000+08:00

today happy bahx but also quite sad

2006-06-20T22:04:00.000+08:00

today horx . i bo $$ den horx
i go darldarl house ah eat lunch i bring big mac go eat
den i wait for darldarl eat den in the meantime i help darldarl play KO
den her bro keep watching me like siao gina like tat =.=
den later darldarl eat horx den no appetite eat
den i quite worried ah ..... cuz she nvr eat
den darldarl only got $10
den she use $5 top up card
den we go tiong meet grace and pearlyn ( i think tats her name i dunno who the hell is she lmao )den after tat we go bugis walk walk bahx
den grace go 1 ear stud shop say wan buy marhx?
den $10 for 3 pair den hor darldarl , grace and the pearl ( dunno wat her name la )
share but the dunno wat name gurl dunnwa buy
so darldarl and grace buy lor for $5
den darldarl later no money liao
den she dunwan eat dinner
den i worried like fuck like tat
den darldarl keep see grace de glasses
den keep saying veri nice den wan 2 buy tat 1
i think ah darldarl now damn chio liao
she dun need follow ppl wear wat de
she juz need be herself can ler bahx
den later darldarl go see glasses
den horx the grace and dunno who go missing ( like the show missing on tv horx ? )
den later call darldarl say at mrt =.= ps us de den is they ask us go out de
den we go 2 ps ( plaze singapora) den we go the power station
see the turtle darldarl like de . den i promise darldarl next week or wen i got $ i buy for her
den we go kevin and samuel den darldarl found a shirt she like
den 2 shirt for $22 so i buy 1 for mineself and 1 for darldarl next week
den we go the bookstore den darldarl read book till 6+
den horx wen we goin 2 the bridge there horx
darldarl hungry den i hor
goin freak out de cuz i dunwan mine darldarl suffer
den i think of how can get money for darldarl 2 eat
den horx i saw a old man holding a sum of money ( aroun 200+ bahx )
den i thought if i steal the money den darldarl dun need suffer
den i wan tel darldarl the thing
den wen i tell her horx
she damn angry lor ...
den walk away from me
den ignore me for so long den later i start get abit angry den walk away also
den wen i was walkin tears start rollin from mine eyes
den later darldarl calm down
den on the brigde i tell her why i think of tat
only den then she noe tat i worried about her
and i didnt wan her 2 starve den after tat
i start crying again dunno y juz cry
den darldarl ask me dun cry
den we spent the rest of the nite at the brigde
den i sing song 2 make ppl lor
den darldarl keep laughing
den tml horx we goin swimming ler
=) i love u darldarl muacks
miss u so much

today so fun so yesterday also

2006-06-18T22:07:00.000+08:00

yesterday we play wild wild wet sia so damn fun
we play almost all the games sia den so nice .
den i lose the card den so ma fan haha nvm
den today . i go to darldrl house
den go wif her family go temple sia
den her dad say darldarl veri bad den ask me help him teach her be good =.=
darldarl so damn good lor he cannot see de. but horx her dad prise her tats the only good thing he do . den after we go temple .darldarl de dad giv her $20 good marhx? not lorx
u noe y he giv marhx . cuz he wan save face =.=
den we go tiong eat lunch for 2 hours sia haha . den we go kallang beach walk walk nia .
den we go darldarl house go eat dinner den darldarl treat me sia . so good worx
den horx . erm.....i jealous XDD cuz of 1 boy keep lookin at darldarl
den i thought darldarl wan sit beside him ha . =$
den we go bridge talk talk den b4 tat i sing so loud till so many ppl diao me haha
den we go bridge talktalk den i sent darldarl go home so good lorx today CC=

alone in the dark

2006-06-15T11:14:00.000+08:00

today . the day wen mine darldarl's heart broken
and its all mine fault . if i was'nt so tired
i would not hav slp so long den ignore her
i didnt wat this 2 happen . but she heartbroken
i dunwan 2 say ler bah . i juz noe
tat now i feel tat i wan 2 die

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2006-06-12T19:43:00.000+08:00

today actually good bahx
till i wan go slp den i ask mine darldarl call me half and hour later
but i didnt noe tat she would be sad
i dreamt tat we at the beach
den we having pinick den we play under the sun
den after tat we take photos
den i keep say wan throw darldarl in water
den she scream .haha her voice so sweet
den at sunset she lie on me den we talk talk
den i hold her head gently den i tell her i love u darldarl
den i hug her tight . den after tat i lay a passionate kiss from me 2 her
den we kiss during the sunset . den later at nite
we go food court eat . after tat i blindfold darldarl
den i bring her 2 the sea side . den i show her wat i made for her
it was a sentence saying darldarl i luv u 1314 using fire crakers
den after tat i go take the fire work den light
den the night sky was filled wif colours
den after tat i send her home
after tat i woke up ler
after tat dunno wat 2 write ler bahx
i hope this dream will come true
i will giv her this dream i had
but i need some time
i hope she can wait
Goh AnAn this is for u
i love u darldarl
i nvr leave u
i always be urs
ur knight in shining armor [ lmao self prise sia plus i no armor =) ]
i cant lose u
i need u
i wan u
darldarl i love u
muackxz
i miss u

Jo :X: an
1314

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2006-06-11T12:43:00.000+08:00

yesterday so fun sia
we go escape me ( me and mine darldarl go )
den so fun den first time i go lehx
at first quite scared wahahahaha
den after tat i ok ler den darldarl scared haha
den after escape horx . we go the bridge
den darldarl lie on me so nice
den i tell her alot of things
den i also touched by her
den i sob darldarl wipe mine tears
3 times nia haha so sweet hors darldarl
den we go home den i running home ah
fall down den leg bleeding
haha den darldarl worried sia
den we talk till she need put down
den we both go slp so nice sia yesterday
i so tired from yesterday ahaha
den our 5 month aniversary comin soon liao
den also horx next saterday i briinging darldarl go wild wild wet
i also nvr go b4 wahahahaha
den i pay half for her swim suit
so nice 2 be wif darldarl sia
tats all la
later i say more horx
u say i kp den u all slp =.=
jkin nia wahahahaah
lolz i siao liao wakakaka
lolz k la
darldarl i love u muackxzz
tats all i hav 2 say

the nvr ending tml

2006-05-30T18:16:00.000+08:00

recently haven been in such a mood
been in an emotional struggles from time 2 time
unable 2 cope wif the pain . i cut mine arm .
but now i'm slighly better than b4 .
i promised her 2 alot of stuff and i tend 2 keep them
i will not be pushed around anymore .
the time 2 fight for wat u believe is here.
fight for ur rights . nvr give in 2 hell.
i will fight and live on 4eva . i love u goh anan .
i will protect u . I swear
mine time is for u 2 spent
and mine heart for u 2 love
i cant live without u darldarl . i mean it .
mine love for u will brun foreva.
ur eyes r like the stars tat glow in the wither nite
ur lips like rose petals so soft and freash
our love stronger den diamond

dun eva be sad k ?
i love u darldarl
muackxz
fate lives on 4eva

It all comes down 2 nth

2006-05-17T22:55:00.000+08:00

so long nvr write blog ler
dun feel like lorx.....hmmm
me ad mine darldarl keep disagreeing wif each other den in the end we both sad haixz
i wan us dun fight anymore lehx . haixz
i dunno wat 2 write ler ah heart veri pain now haixz
k lor cya u all

howl of the wolf

2006-05-06T18:56:00.000+08:00

today saterday liao actually surpose 2 go out wif darldarl but den i no money den she also cannot go out so sian lor den in the afternoon she go out wif her parents for polling den me at home so sian lor nvm la . so since mine attendence veri low maybe i'll be bared from exam =.= . sian lor if i bared cannot take exam . i found a reason 2 study liao tat reason is her . ha maybe a funny reason but 2 me its reality .so tml goin out wif darldarl lor but i dunno where 2 go ha so nvm lor.
tml den write bahx quite sian mine interent is gone (im using other ppl wireless keke).den cannot play KO ( knight online) den cannot lvl up i now lvl 47 need lvl up to 60 in 5 weeks
den internet connection like crap den cannot play =.= . den need wait till after holiday lor den i chong all the way liao play 24 hours den lvl up in a week or so bahx den come lvl 60
im quite pro in the game la lvl so low can solo golem ahahaha nth much 2 say ler bahx but tml den write more bahx

wake me up from the darkness

2006-04-29T21:30:00.000+08:00

today i went out wif darldarl larx
we go buy her shirt den cannot find skirt lehx
den i also buy shirt haha and i buy ring and necklance
darldarl also got earring from me den ah after tat we go bag shop forgot the name liao la
den ah dun hav the correct colour sian lor =.= evertime i dun hav the money den ah the bag there no i got money dthe bag is gone =.= nvm lor den we go other place lorx den in the end
today was nice bahx but wen i came home ah i feel a sense of darkness in mine heart
the passion of cryng is there but under control i feel like a person without a soul
den juz now i feel like mine darldarl no mood lehx den she say dun hav but i dunno lehx
i felt the way she answer and nvr talk like no mood lehx so i also no mood now ah
tml i goin out wif her i think den i go cut mine hair but i not sure got money anot ah
now only got 5.50 left so little sia im a spendtrift =.= nvm la as long is for her ok liao
i wonder wat mine darldarl is thinkin now eh .hmm i wonder wat she is doin
i dunoe lehx but i feel uneasy like she keepin something from me like tat i.........juz dunno la
so long i nvr post laio cuz stupid mom take away internet den i need use other ppl internet 1
so cannot post lor exam comin nearer so good luck 2 all of u
hope u all do well
darldarl i love u
i miss u veri much k
tml i wish i can see u darldarl

today fun bahx but tml sian liao

2006-04-27T20:04:00.001+08:00

today nvr go skool lor cuz i giddy in the morning
maybe cuz the day b4 i walk under the rain bahx
den today got giddy den nvr go skool lor
today mine darldarl come find mi lor
den she come mine house den i hug and kiss her lor
den she slp on mi and i also slp on her den she cuddle on mi
so nice lor den the look on her face was veri sweet lehx so nice lor her face
hmm den tml she goin out wif her fren liao so sian liao
she go out den tml i got nth 2 do cannot call her cannot go out
got nth 2 do lor so sian . so tml i think after consoling i go slp till nite time
juz wish she hav a good timr tml lor i'll miss her
but cant do anithin so nvm lor juz wait for her come back from her outing lor
den she also writing blog darldarl i juz wan 2 say i love u
and i miss u veri much muackxz

i will not let this hate and angry build up inside

2006-04-24T15:37:00.000+08:00

Today i go back skool ler . quite sian bahx aiya didnt care about tat was waitin after skool
den after skool go home , call mine darldarl den she tell mi she got project den she dunno wan see mi . haixz i cannot see her the time i waited for about 7 hours for gone less den a second
so now i quite no mood lar . i not sad liao k .cuz i will not be sad anymore liao
i now abit angry ah . so if u wan mess wif mi now . i'll FUCKING MESS UR FUCKING ASS UPSIDE DOWN SO GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME IF U WAN 2 PLAY A FUCKING FOOL OR GET READY 2 BE FUCKED UP. see wat i mean . i change the sadness 2 madness .juz waiting at home 2 come find me but i got a feeling tat she will'nt come . so let it be lor
suan ler ah . tml got fucking chinese exam . u think i fucking care? if u think yes fuck urself
i dun care about it .i wan see her but she again got project sian den i also think she also not goin find me . fuck la . bloody chibye skool keep giving mine darldarl so many thing 2 do
fuck urself la chibye kia . so nth 2 do la . if i noe i go out la den dun come back till 2 am like tat
fuck la cannot do liao la , in the first place i also dunno can do anot .wat the fuck la i now damn pissed la i wan fucking destroy the fucking outram secondary skool
u think i care about ur fucking skool feeling , FUCK U !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
u also nvr think about mine feelings so wat the fuck i care about ur fucking feelings
so juz fuck urself u fucking skool bloody kanina chibye bastard
wat the fuck do i do now lehx? no fucking thing 2 do
im so fucking bored wan her now but she got 2 fucking project
tat she muz finish sian la fuck the fucking project la . fuck the fucking skool tat giv the project la
u tell mi wat 2 do ? i need her so badly wan her now NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but she got project so wtf how liao cannot do anithin rite
so fuck lor si gina tao si la fucking kanina skool .i wan 2 fuck the skool upside down ah
but cant do a fucking thing so fuck it la . i wonder wen she can come find mi ah
come mine house wen ah i also dunno she also dunno
wat the fuck lor i thought her english remedial finish ler last week
den this week can come find mi . but in the end got 2 fucking project
juz FUCK URSELF LA U FUCKING CHIBYE KANINA FUCKING ASSHOLE BASTRAD LANJIAO GINA BE SI DAO BOLAN KUMLAN SI BO CHIBYE KIA
i stop here liao la

star of fate beautiful but deadly

2006-04-20T20:20:00.000+08:00

goin 2 talk about mine life lor let everbody noe how i feel inside secrets will be revealed , shadows lighten all will be uncovered so i start now lor
since young i was a spoilted child was given everything i pleased
was over-protected evertime small thing happen dad will make a fuss
like a fren juz call u stupid mine dad go scold mine fren =.=
tats changes wen mine 2 bros r born i dun get so much of these which is good u think ?
but im tormented by mine parents wen teachin mi stuff i get hit and whacked
in the end i do well so should i hate they ? i dunno
but it all ends on june 2005 .... mine dad was caught stealin and sentenced to 1 month inprisonment after his released he totally changed 2 a complete different person
den during october mine mum commited addualtary and mine dad found out
now im caught in between the co-war a innocent guy on the battle field
now they torment their power around . i dun giv a damn 2 wat they do
is wat they do 2 mi tat i care , u can insult mi but nvr insult the things close 2 mi
like mine god family and most importantly goh anan mine darling
1 day ur pay for wat ur doin i'll make sure of it
u can nvr escape ur destiny but u can bend ur fate
but fate cannoted be bended so much ur see wat happens
a line tat will break leading 2 ur demize
despair and beg but no1 will be there
ur so called son joseph kwan is no longer ur last time good boy
i am reborned a total different person tat lives only for his reason
and nth u do will stop mi .im determind 2 do well in life
u can say im a failure but wat r u? u will nvr make mi fall 2 the ground
u can beat mi down over and over again but i'll juz come back up
i'll make u pay for wat u done 2 mi
but 1 thing is certain
i need u Goh AnAn
if the world is 2 hate mi i dun care i only need u
i love u so much im willin 2 giv up anithin
i'll be beside u foreva if u let mi
darldarl i love u so much wif all mine heart and soul
tml i can finally see u ler horx?
now i talk about other thing
today ah miss ong mine science teacher bring mi go see doctor
she help mi pay de so good horx mine teacher
den i go home call mine darldarl lorx
den wait for her 2 go home lorx den we talk and talk till now la
haha i juz miss her so much tml i go outram lehx so far lor >< no la jkin
den mi darldarl force mi go >< haha no la jkin again muz jkjk around marhx
den serious till eye pop out ah ? no rite lol haha
i juz miss her k , i wan buy her bag soon lehx den buy mine basketball
wa i think this is the longest horx? 1 of these days ah im goin giv mi darldarl a surprise
ha i wan her 2 be happy eh next year darldarl and mi will be 1 horx
so u wan mi stop here marhx? i think first erm..........
DUNWAN STOP HERE!!!!! lol
haha so now talk wat im a freakin good game freak
i'll kick ur ass no matter wat game
only som u may win la haha cuz im a game freak
den still haven hear mi darldarl sing song i wan hear eh
mine sweet cute chio lovely adorable attractive (got alot more but if keep writing next year den can finish ) darldarl is mine so dun take her or i'll make u die
ha so i stop here now bahx think should horx
but i really not sure lehx hmm i wan darldarl pei mi till at nite again like yesterday den we laugh
again so fun lor first time i laugh til goin cry haha i juz love her 2 much liao
im addicted 2 u darldarl X)
haha so long liao dunno how long i write liao but i stop here later everbody read half way slp liao
haha CC= i love u AnAn

Joseph & AnAn
4eva

today sick still ..........

2006-04-18T17:28:00.000+08:00

yesterday cannot slp think of her
den today wake up at 7am
den turn on com den play till now ah
but now i feel veri no mood like tat
cuz miss her 2 much liao and other thing la
wan cry lor haixz i dunno can control how long
juz no mood do anithin now haixz hope can see her tml
i dun giv a damn about mine sickness onlly about her
this is all lor for today haixz nvm ler la

don noe ( follow darldarl again )

2006-04-15T20:32:00.002+08:00

so today is 1 day after our 3 month aniversary
today we go watch movie den ah all the cheese spil on mi =.=
darldarl not ut fault horx dun blame urself haha
den after tat ah mine $50 come $10 now =.=
walao cannot buy darldarl her bag sian
nvm lor i try take money and buy her the bag bahx
anyway today was fun lor but i cant remeeber wat happen lehx
so dunno wat 2 write lol haha next time write longer

don noe ( follow darldarl again )

2006-04-15T20:32:00.001+08:00

i dunno ( follow mi darldarl de )

2006-04-02T16:27:00.000+08:00

today actually surpose go out wif darldarl la
den after tat she cannot den i sad lor den got moodswing
so tml i goin out wif her today nth much happen and i love her
and miss her alot tats all 4 today bahx i follow mine darldarl
Joseph & AnAn 4eva

today nvr go skool

2006-03-29T10:55:00.000+08:00

today in the morning got stomach cramp
den nvr go skool i miss mine darldarl so much sia
cant wait 4 tml i wan 2 see her now but tat aint gonna happen
so juz gotta wait 4 tml . i was surpose 2 giv her a present tml
but i aint got enough hope she can wait abit longer
i wonder how is she now . wat is she doin . does she miss mi ?
i dunno la but all i noe is tat i love her and i wan 2 take care of her 4eva
fate = F-ate brought us together nvr 2 be torn apart
A-nan i love u wif all mine heart and soul
T-ill eternity i'll be wif u 2 take care of u no matter wat
E-ternity maybe long but i stay wif u till den

will u be there on the ground if i should fall ? i believe u will
Fate Warheart loves u so much <33
missed by mi till dawn cannot break

miracles do happen

2006-03-28T17:43:00.000+08:00

today i got mine wallet back
so happy la .nth was missing from mine wallet
i thought i was goin 2 lose it for eva
but i got it back i believe in mine catch phares even more
tat miracles will happen and today nvr go out wif darldarl

cuz dad nag so i dunwan go if not kanna stupic arguement

but i didnt noe darldarl was sad if i knew she wanted 2 see mi

i would hav gone no matter wat no is goin 2 rain ler

thursday goin out wif darldarl but i dun hav money for her present

shit la i promise 2 get her a present which is the bag which she wanted for so long but no money

stupid lorx nvm la . i try mine best 2 get money i dunwan 2 break mine promise 2 her

she is mine everthing nth is important juz as she is

she is the soul tat brought mi 2 life

and i love her no matter wat im not ashame 2 be wif her

im proud 2 be wif her proud 2 be there for her

well mine mind now is in a complete mess la

parental probs and so on

but im kinda able 2 coop cuz of her

so i thnx u goh anan and i love u mine baobei

reborn and im gonna be better den eva

2006-03-26T21:07:00.000+08:00

today i feel like quite sad at first la but now which is in the nite ah i feel strange
totally different den b4 now like im full of passion i dunno how 2 explan
i think things r goin 2 get better and better juz wish for it
anyway im sry for worrying darldarl im fine i guess
hope friday will come true really do i feel different
kinda of a angel or some wat like tat
Joseph kwan aka Fate Warheart god of fate is reborn
lol i sot ler haha also dunno y lehx wahahahah
hmm anyway i love her more and more day by day
and i wish 2 be wif her 1314 tats all gonna end here

vanishing from this world drifting away

2006-03-26T08:53:00.000+08:00

yesterday finally got back mine internet connection
den yesterday surpose 2 go wif darldarl go beach
but den cannot cuz her dad dun allow den hit her
den she cry haixz den i wan talk 2 her also cannot
i need her veri much , i cant bear for her 2 suffer
y cant i take the pain instead ? haixz
den yesterday i go church wif mine god bro
2 pray for mine darldarl den today also goin i think
but i dun feel like also dunno lehx haixz
in mine life there is no such thing as family
only frens tat i consider brothers and sisters
last and most importantly is mine stead goh anan
i feel tat these few days i bring her sorrow instead of happiness
everytime i call her voice is like veri sad like tat den she dunwan 2 tell mi wat happen
i dun even noe if im fit 2 call her dear laio
i need her , i cant bear 2 lose sight of her
i think she muz be slpin now bahx
but i dun feel like living haixz
i dunno la im lost
im in a fog tat disludes mi
all i noe is tat i love her
i need her , i wan 2 be wif her
and tat is mine fate

haixz

2006-03-13T12:34:00.001+08:00

seems tat mine nightmare will come true haixz
seems i getting further apart from everbody
im breaking apart from everbody haixz
i think even mine darldarl is leaving haixz
i dunno how long this relesionship will last liao
haixz i dunno liao la now no mood so dunwan write liao

haixz

2006-03-13T12:34:00.000+08:00

nice!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha

2006-03-12T11:31:00.000+08:00

yesterday mi and mine darldarl actually wan go beach
so we go siglap eat den after tat we wan go mine house there
there we see mi 2 bro ronald and jiawei den i faster get out of bus
den we follow them go cut hair i also wan cut hair sia
den go skool play basketball haha fun bahx
but i lose form liao sia so sia suay nvm bahx
at least got win andy only later at nite den i got form sia
den playing it rain sia walao so heavy den deardear is wet
den the bloody car go past den splash water at mi and deardear
mi nvm but den at deardear i wan compensation of $5000!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but i cover darldarl wif mine body and bag hope she ok
den later i send deardear 2 bus stop den kiss her goodbye
actually i wan hold her hand and dun let go lorx
nvm bahx den later we go escape den meet jiawei ex and frenx
den we play basketball outside escape and i didnt noe how much pattern i got sia
is this hidden power?lol. den i do pattern den play lorx den later we ask them wan play basketball not den the dunwan den jiawei ronald make plan say joseph u diao them
we go gan them den later ah wen they gang the 2 guy and 3 gal ah they see mi ah
they kanna shock cuz they thought i paikai den where is joseph lehx
den later they tell mi joseph how come u diao so freaking fierce like real paikai
den the 2 boy really belive tat i am ronald and jiawei lao da
den i diao at the den the hum sia fun lor den later mi ronald and jiawei walk pass them
den we diao again so fun sia also dunnno y but fun lorx i wan do again sia but cannot
den after tat we go jiawei house den 4 am we go outside eat rotiprata
cool marhx ? the second time in mine life i eat roti prata its like so cool lorx
the first time was wif Goh Anan haha den go back jiawei house slp den
7.22 i wake up den go home den slp wan call deardear lorx but i fall aslp
den now is 11.42am and dunno how may second and mini second
waiting 4 her on9 i miss her i love her and i am her's
den later play basketball i shall play for GOH ANAN and i love her

drifting apart torn into pieces

2006-03-09T15:58:00.000+08:00

today is thursday liao feel strange happy and sad at the same time
seems the sadness is overtaking mine happyness hmmmmmmm
feel strange lor i can be sad over small things dunno liao ah
im not sure lors . izzit mi or u guyz but i seem 2 be drifting apart from everbody
even mine gf .....haixz im be torn 2 pieces
how i wished i could turn around and pick up these pieces
haixz i dunno who 2 talk 2 also haixz
later talk 2 wrong person feel worst sian la
i talk 2 mine gf also dunno she feel it anot but i seem 2 be goin away
haixz i also dunno liao .mine head is in a gaze so confused
i wan go out but wif who and how haixz
everday it seems 2 be getting worst...................
i dunno if wat i do is correct or not .....................
i need her now sia......im not sure she noe anot but i really need her now
i dun care about other ppl only her .....i dunwan her 2 compare herself wif other ppl liao la
i feel so haixz i also dunno how say sian ah sian ah
juz hope tat in the mood ii am in now
i dun do somethin 2 upset her or mine god-siblings and close frens
and lose them 4eva tats wat i hope lorx
tats all liao bahx if got other thing wan say den i do another post

more about mine life

2006-03-08T13:46:00.000+08:00

mine dad is a jailbird , mom is a adulter
both of them think they r right all the time
now mine dad wans 2 get mi out of the skool
i feel tat day by day im getting further and further from this world
im being drived up the wall by both mine parents
i cant take much more of their slandering
if this continues i may juz explode into them
meaning giv them the beating of their life
but if i do tat i might go 2 the boys home
so im confused on wat 2 do. haixz
can anybody enlighten mi wat 2 do?
can i ever run away from this life of mine?
will anybody in these "family" see the good points of mi
so many queastion so little anwser
i dunwan 2 get kicked out of skool
no matter wat i cant
and no matter wat u do "dad"
i'm goin 2 be better den u in life
but 1 thing is for sure
i will nvr be as childish as u
and i will nvr be a jailbird

the thoughts in mine head

2006-03-07T19:12:00.000+08:00

k today im goin 2 tell everbody about wat im thinkin these past days
its kinda hard for mi 2 say in person so im saying it in mine blog k
could i ask u something? wat is a family? izzit u , ur mom and dad?
a place u can go 2 for help ? i dunno wat these word means can some1 tell mi
every day it seems tat i am drifting further away from these place called "family"
i find tat im more attacted 2 mine god-siblings and mine gf den family
im tired of being insulted for nth . scolded and picked on.
mine dad and mom dun call mi by mine name
call mi by bad words . i was kid tat loved his father alot
but now im changed i hate mine dad and mom
i dun even think they r mine dad and mom
they say i treat ppl outside better den home
ya tats true cuz ppl outside giv mi a feeling of belonging and love
wat do i get at these so called "home" ?
scoldings fights badmouthing being picked on
i wan 2 leave but dunno where 2 go
during the holidays i think i'll stay at mine frens place
2 get away from all this crap
i thought parents were suposed 2 help u nurture u
instead im being picked on , lectured ,critisized
wen i make a mistake mine mom and dad rub it in instead of comforting mi
wats on the outside is juz a act tat im rich and happy
tats all a act . the true is im not the least happy wif mine family
im not rich i may seem on the outside but in reality im poorer den ppl living ing hdb flats
mine "family" is in debt mine mother is wasting the money she earns on adultary
she goes on the internet serching for men and she slps wif them hoping they will marry her
her goal is 2 be rich and she does this for lust . i could not see a woman worst den her
dad thinks he is on a league nobody can reach juz becuz he is a passed his universaty wif a master degree nth he does is wrong and wat ever he says is the law
wat kind of family do u think i come from?
i cant even be in peace for 1 hour
dad thinks of childish ways 2 disturb ppl wen he is mad
like prank calls or childish stuff like tat
i cant be bothered about all this but it all comes 2 haunt mi
the ppl i treat as family r the ppl close 2 mi
like ppl who r mine god-siblings (frens but consider siblings 2 mi )
mine GF the person who consoled mi wen i was down
and ppl who care for mi
i dun hav a single bit of love for mine dad and mom in fact i hate them 2 the core
so i juz wan peace tats all i wan
if i could be wif her for 1 whole day
mine mind will be in peace
cuz wif her im in peace
i stop here anan u noe i love muack

today fun but sad at the same time

2006-03-06T23:01:00.000+08:00

Today go out wif deardear veri fun
den deardear so cute wen she laugh
and blush so fun if only tat time froze
hmm anyway den go home kanna scolded by dad
sian kanna scolded everday by him sian
hmm den waiting for mine darldarl parents say yes
but she say dun dare haha nvm lor
if she dunwan do it its ok de
i wun force her hmmm now emotional unstable
want 2 run away from home but dunno where 2 go
think during holiday i will run bahx
stay at mine didi house bahx either keown or jiawei
or maybe ronald. sometimes i wonder if wat im doin is rite
like maybe anan i 2 good for mi or i think im a born loser
cant think of anithin 2 jk about now hmm so serious lor
i dun hav a family since yesterday i dun hav a place called home
the only family i hav is mine god family wif mine stead anan
mine dad always says tat i treat ppl outside better den ppl at home
hmm here is the answer cuz u all dun treat mi as family tats y
and the ppl outside treat mi as family im really wondering
where 2 go if im goin 2 runaway maybe ill stay at the beach or something hmm i dunno ler
anyway i wish deardear the best and be happy always hoping ur parents say yes
<3 anan loads miss u aot joseph

mine life

2006-03-04T20:29:00.000+08:00

hmm so long nvr post liao
so today im posting lets start wif
nobody cares and loves mi in this world
i hav no family . the only family i hav is
all mine godbro and godsis and mine deardear
and some close frenz i hav no dad nor mom
they dun treat mi as a son they think they can toy wif mi
think im a tool 2 vent ur fastration well im not so fuck off
im fucking pissed by both ur actions both mom and dad
both of u can go fuck urself till u die and i mean it
i'll bear the hatred for u foreva till eternalty
i dunwan 2 lose her nvr wan 2 hmm
but im scared i did something wrong
i juz wan her 2 noe i really love her
and miss her alot muack
Goh Anan I Love U

today was bad haixz

2006-02-21T19:37:00.000+08:00

today was the worst day i guess
go find darldarl den call mine fren
den later another of them noe mine stead number
shit lar den they dun believe dun care la den the insult mi asshole sia
den not mine prob we all say bugis den now they say simei fuck them la
chibye kia pissed like fuck ok dun mess wif mi now or i'll kick ur ass
see who izzit lorx but was not tat bad bahs cuz wif deardear and her
voice is cuter den b4 haha almost blush lorx hahah anyway i love u muack

today deardear sick

2006-02-19T18:46:00.000+08:00

deardear sick sia wa den i veri worried =p
hope she get well soon muackxz i love u

Fate is a path so much like Destiny
but Fate can change ur path of Destiny
a warrior can have pride but he may not be loyal
or he can have forsake his pride for his loyalty

hmmm 1 month aniversary + valentine day hmmmm

2006-02-14T11:58:00.000+08:00

today is valentine and also mi and deardear's 1 month aniversary
but i think i cant go out haixz cuz dad need go out ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i dun care i wun giv up!!!!!!!!!!!!for this is a tale of mine own
and i am its fate so i'll nvr giv up .i'll try mine best 2 go out later
deardear i love u muackkie
[":X:"Fate":X:"]

phew im alive lol!!!!!

2006-02-11T21:59:00.000+08:00

haha today so fun , i so scared till wat
haha walk 1 cm by 1 cm lolxz anyway was not so bad bahx
haha luv deardear present haha today i bended darling's fate. cool marhx?
today deardear go out at nit lehx hahah dun tell u liao muhauhauahau
lol juz wan say thx 2 deardear for u gift

finally the time 2 live or die

2006-02-10T17:28:00.000+08:00

ha today friday ler so long sia like was 100 year like tat
tml goin see mine deardear parents scary sia
ha yesterday nvr slp properly cuz scared la
like later she ask smeting den i dunno how answer
or i blush den say wrong or she dun believe den angry
scared till like cat like tat sia haha anyway i miss
mine deardear she still in skool i think i hope she reach home soon
den i can call her and talk 2 her till the sun rise or something like tat
the daies wif her were fun adn filled wif joy but...............................
the days ahead would be better and i love her
u made mine wish come true but i got another wish which i wun tell u
muhauhauahauhaua i so evil lols anyway dunno wat else 2 write
but will still write cuz past days nvr write cuz like dun feel like writing larx
i wonder wat i should wear sia thinkin about tml really is giving mi a headache
so i thought 2 mineself im juz gonna be mineself joseph kwan (mine name like shit no la jkjk)
aka fate warheart ( is this the coolest name u heard? haha thats mi cool marhx ? lol)
deardear heartbeat evertime so fast and nice feel veri like warm wen i hug her
den wen she laugh so cute . correct marhx ? ok silence means correct and ur comments will
be totally ignored muahuahauahauhauhaauha im so evil lol jkjk
anyway still got a long way wif her dun u agree yeah see u say yes also i dun care ur comments will ve ignored remeber or do u hav such a short term memory tat u forgot tat u stayed in earth
still got 999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999
999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999
999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999 years and more btw wats tat number? i also dunno
cher!!!! tell mi lehx i noe u veri smart lehx walao like tat
haha today talk alot crap u noe crap?
CRAP,CrAp,cRaP ok i think i get the idea anyway
i feel different den b4 i met her she kinda changed mi i guess
and im not scared 2 tell her anithin i think
cuz i believe in her more importantly i believe in her heart and soul
and i love u goh anan aka josephine goh muack

today go cut hair

2006-02-05T18:43:00.000+08:00

today go cut hair lorx
looks nice i think
waiting for saterday
i miss u veri much
tats all i gotta say i guess
i love u muackxz

haiz

2006-02-03T16:01:00.000+08:00

haixz today come home after detention at abt 2.30pm
nvr go band cuz too late liao den go home was happy cuz wan call deardear
but i called her and she nvr pick up and respond haixz
now i dun feel like doing anith liao haixz
yesterday i got a nightmare saying she would leave mi
haixz i really hope tat does not happen
haixz i really miss her alot
haixz i love her
crying in the pain haixz

today first time go back skul for 1 week plus cool marhx?

2006-02-02T17:57:00.000+08:00

after skool today i went home lorx
den mine didi (jorge),who is fat and round, say wan go mine house
den i cannot find him den i hack care him or his aunty and went home
den called deardear den i heard she stuck outside her house
so kelin de worx mine deardear den i wan go there but cannot
tat time fell like crying but nvr tell her dun wan worry her
den now chattting wif her on pone lorx
and as usual i love her and miss a lot
deardear i love u muackxz

today happy lehx but also got cry abit haha

2006-02-01T19:39:00.000+08:00

today nvr go skul cuz wan dream of u
den after tat i wait till u dismiss den call u
but u dismiss 1 hr b4 haha den i didnt noe
see i so stupid =p den i chat wif deardear
i miss her so much den she gav mi the sweetest testi lehx
"=D darldarl i missss eu so0 muchh. feel some kind 0f happiness when i'm talking and wif eu. hope tat it'll be lyke tat 4eva.don ever think i'll leave u,coz ii'll not leave u for sure.=) u're my darldarl forever. i love u.muackiiex ^^"
sweet marhx. its not sweet lorx
its juz freaking super sweet!!!!!!
anyway i also feel the same as mine darling
den juz now cry abit cuz i miss her
while she bathing ever second
ever thought was her
den i juz cry also dunno y
haha i juz miss her
and i love her veri much
she means alot 2 mi
i love u muacxkz

nice show!!!!!!!!1

2006-01-31T19:40:00.000+08:00

today go out wif mine darling ,meimei and her fren
watch i not stupid 2 .the show nice sia
den take neoprint wif deardear lehx?
den i kiss her ahaaahaaaa
den today veri fun larx
hope tat everytime like tat also

today damn freakin sibei sibei happy

2006-01-30T19:33:00.000+08:00

today i go out wif darling lehx
meet at platform
den we go also dunno cuz forgot liao
haha den veri happy larx
hug deardear den her heartbeat so fast sia
first time lehx cool marhx?
den 1 surprising thing is ah
darling notice mine scar on mine hand
nobody notice b4 lehx
haha veri happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
den tml maybe goin wif deardear watch movie
den if no money deardear treat mi lehx
so good of mine deardear sia
anyway i juz wan 2 say i love her veri much
and she is veri veri veri important 2 mi
hope tat this love 4 her will burn eternally
i love u deardear
muackxz

tml can go out ler wif my darldarl ler

2006-01-29T13:05:00.000+08:00

tml is also cy i think but veri speacial 2 mi cuz
tml i goin out wif my deardear
den yesterday i miss mine deardear around 3-4am
den wake up but cannot call her
den like walk aroun like zombie like tat for 1 hor bahx
den go back 2 slp but didnt noe deardear also wake up
wan call mi cool marhx?
deardear i juz wan u 2 noe i wun leave u
and i love u muackxz

chinese new year ler!!!!!!!!!

2006-01-28T13:36:00.000+08:00

today actually laopo and mi wan go out
but her dad say cannot go out
so nvm bahx but kinda happy bahx
today i ask deardear call mi wen she wake up
den in the night i keep waking up
see if 9 am liao marhx
den 9.04am i call deardear lorx
den chat wif her till mom nag bahx
den hear deardear say i love u 2 times lehx
cool marhx?den i tell her i dream of her singing
wa veri nice lorx the dream den deardear dun
wan tell mi she drean wat >.< haha jkjk
not angry de as long u happy can liao
den i do housework while chatting wif mine darldarl
den now wan all her ler
so anyway deardear
i love u
muackxz
here is a poem 4 u

The four-letter word everyone longs to hear
To have that special someone whisper it in your ear
We wait our whole lives for the real thing
Many times mistaking what was only a fling
When you find that someone, you'll know it's real
Because in your heart, it will be love you feel
When you look in their eyes and feel your heart beating
You'll know it's the love that is never fleeting
Unselfishly you give your heart...
Hoping and praying it will not be torn apart
If ever this love proves not to be true
He'll leave with something belonging to you
A part of your heart forever he'll take
You will get over this, for your own sake
After all, you must still go on
For it is not your whole heart that is gone
Many believe in love at first sight
If you find that someone, hold on tight
Work on the relationship to make it grow
And in time you will know
If this is the love, you've waited your life for
You will never want or need... anything more

i love u deardear
muackxz

mine day today

2006-01-27T18:32:00.000+08:00

sian lehx . wan go out wif deardear
den my 2 bros call mi go out cut hair
den i cannot find them.till veri late
den dun wan cut hair liao den go play basketball
den see so many pro dunwan play ler
den play at mine house there
den i wan leave liao,they say dun ps us lehx
den cannot go lorx
den after tat,go home got scolded
den run there, den caught in the rain
den come back, got scolded again
sian, i miss u alot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i love u muackxz !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

now is 12.47 am lerx

2006-01-27T00:48:00.000+08:00

deardear cant slp lehx
thinkin of u. wa today go out fun marhx?
den come my house.hehe .den i hug u so warm
den kiss u haha sian lehx now so write lorx
tml i got half day wonder deardear can go out marhx?
miss u alot muackxz i love u

haha deardear at my house now lehx cool marhx?

2006-01-26T16:18:00.000+08:00

today nvr go skul again
cuz wan dream of u lehx
den also going 2 meet u marhx
den juz now my grandma and relitive come my house
but den i gtg ler cuz going meet my deardear
den go lorx.den reach at 2.02pm den wait 4 her half an hour bahx
den call her lerx . den her teacher ask her stay back for some stupid reason
the teacher can go die for all i care . but anyway now my deardear at my house so
happy larx. in fact she juz beside mi now . cool marhx?
can hug her alot of time . muhauahuahahauh.lol
anyway so a poem for my darling

ur voice the sound of the ocean calming everthing in sight
ur face as bright as the star lighting the way 2 ur heaven
ur love as warm as a crimson flame buring 4eva in my heart
ur kisss like a gift from the gods send 2 mi alone difined by nth but mine love 4 u
i love u muackxz

today also nvr go skul

2006-01-25T12:53:00.000+08:00

today nvr go skul
u noe y marxh darldarl?
cuz i wan dream longer of u
cool marhx?anyway hows ur dance lehx?
now only 12.56pm lehx
muz be good horx
walao i cannot go see as guest of honor sia
nvm bahx .jiayou horx deardear
will surport u de
do ur best horx
anyway today sorry worx
nvr call u at 6 am
sorry lehx
i nvr wake up on time
cuz dreaming of u =p
darling arhx need u help mi do something later can marh?
i need u help mi do my class blog the box can chat de
also not sure wats tat=p
anyway here is a poem 4 my darling

The wind blows through the tree, like a whisper soft and warm.
I close my eye's and think of you, and see a shadowed form.
The moonlight cascades it's light, shinning on you from above.
The stars twinkle in your eye's, and tell me of your love.

nice marhx?
hope u like it my darling
i love u muackxz

im sick today =p

2006-01-24T12:47:00.000+08:00

darling ah. im sick today lehx got sore throat
today at 6+am call deardear lehx
hear her sweet voice
so nice like a start 2 a new day
cool marhx?anyway now waiting 4 darling come home
den here is a poem 4 u my darling

If ever I were to lose you,I wouldn't know what to do.I couldn't imagine how it would bewithout having you to share my life with me.My heart would be filled with sadnessmy life with lots of pain,and I don't think I could love again.I'm not saying that I wouldn't go on,or find some way to be happy,but no one else could ever beas loving and special as you are to me

hope u like my poem
but here is another one

If ever I were to lose you,I wouldn't know what to do.I couldn't imagine how it would bewithout having you to share my life with me.My heart would be filled with sadnessmy life with lots of pain,and I don't think I could love again.I'm not saying that I wouldn't go on,or find some way to be happy,but no one else could ever beas loving and special as you are to me

hope u like it my darldarl
and i love u muackxz

deardear u mean the world 2 mi

2006-01-23T18:42:00.000+08:00

darling hope u noe how much u mean 2 mi
and here is another poem 4 u

As Dawn ApproachesAs dawn approaches, I open my eyes-to your sweet words, or gentle kiss,and I think to myself-with wonder and surprise,How could I have ever gotten as lucky as this?How could it be,that you're right here with me,Sharing my life, and touching my heart so deeply?Each day is wonderful,exciting and new,because of your love,And just being with you.With your love-you've helped me find,a happiness I never knew beforeand as each day passes-I love you even more

i love u muackxz

in ur arms

2006-01-23T18:32:00.000+08:00

deardear today go out fun marhx?
wa walk so long sia den i so blur
deardear so cute de worx....
den in the music shop the song so crappy lorx
hear deardear voice ah is 1,000,000% better lorx
den if deardear sing wa...100,000,000% better den the song
haha hope u enjoy urself...........................................
cuz i did =p and i love u
muackxz

here is another poem for u my darldarl

There are times that the nights-seem so long.It feels as though the darkness-will go on and on.I lie awake waiting-for morning's first light,because it brings with it you,and in your arms, everything is all right.I can not describe-all the feelings that overcome me.In your arms, I feel-a combination of such love, warmth and peace-that it overtakes me so completely

the start of a beautiful day

2006-01-23T08:55:00.000+08:00

today at 6 am called my darldarl sia
den heard her voice lehx was so sweet
and i was the first one 2 do tat lehx. cool marhx?
later at 2pm wan giv her surpraise hehe
im going there 2 her skul there wait 4 her . cool marhx?
den wen she go home she will see mi den we go out
muuhauhahauh cool marhx? lol
anyway here is the start of the day 4 u my darling
a poem 2 light a smile on ur face

Thinking Of YouA mist mingles through the trees as the day breaks.The sun peeks through the sky, and my heart aches.As the sun's rays reach my face it reminds meOf the sunshine of your voice. I look behind to seeThis empty room....this empty bed....The baren pillows for us to lay our heads.You are not here with me, and I wish you were.You are where I cannot reach. My emotions stirInside my soul, and swell beyond all turning back.The tears stinging my face from memories I lack.My hands gripping the sill, I lean my faceAgainst the window pane of this lonely place.A voice cries out within my soul!I wish I had a better way to reach this goalOf wanting you wanting me...and the warmth of your embrace,And the tinglng sensation as I touch your face...As I pull you closer and stare into your eyesAnd feel the emptiness...then I realizeThat all I have here with me is hope.And I am just dangling at the end of a rope.One more dream....just one more day...And one more chance to think of a way.....Not to miss you....

i await

2006-01-22T15:57:00.000+08:00

I AwaitI close my eyes and hear your voice.I must Await, I have no choice!So many nights I sleep alone...With my lingering eyes upon the phone.You have become one with the wind,And my beating heart on you depends!My soul feels baren and so unsure.I long to kiss sweet lips that are yours.I yearn to touch with finger-tips,The moist, sweet softness of those lips!To feel your breath upon my skin...The warm embrace... you pulling me in...Inside your soul...inside your mind.Your hands upon me, gentle and kind.Our bodies meet, and flesh to fleshWe form one spirit where our bodies mesh.We dance as firelight within a flame...We are but one...we are the same.With feelings swelling so deep within,I feel a tingle beneath my skin!But eyes do open and I realizeYou are not here...the night hears my cries!You have become part of my fate,And for your return, I will await!

darling i miss u veri much 2 and im so fortunate 2 hav u

2006-01-22T09:41:00.000+08:00

darling i really love u C=
now is 9.42am miss u alot now
and here is another poem for u my darling

Because of you my world is happy--a place I love to be.My days are filled with laughter, my nights with the sweetest dreams. Because of you my lips keep smiling, my eyes light up with joy, my heart beats extra quickly......and all because of you

here is another poem

Falling in love with you was like discovering a world filled withsmiles and laughter,closeness and caring,long talks and quiet moments.Being in love with you is all of that, and more...it's knowing that all the joy we've found togetherwill be a special part of every morrow

and another one C=<3

I think of youand dream of moonlit nightsof slow waltzessoft kisses and romancein that dream as we danceand hold each other closeI look up in the skysprinkled with silver starsand blow a kiss to themfor making you come true

dear this is the last i can think of now C=

I sat alone and watched the sun set last night and thought of you and I...I wished and hoped and prayed and beggedbut couldn't figure why...
That in these lands no other does believe in me like you...And why I do things to get myselfin a big 'ole pot of stew...
You have shown to me, and not just once,that your love will never fail...And it's this one thought that brings me homethrough the rain, sleet, snow, and hail...
I can't imagine life withoutyou snuggled in my arms...I can't imagine love withoutyour sweet kisses and charms...
This is why I say to you, my wife,that never again will I run...For we need to talk and heal our heartsand be together for the setting of the sun.....

and i love u
muackxz

darldarl sorry worx make u worried and i love u

2006-01-21T19:51:00.000+08:00

darldarl here is another poem for u my love

through eyes of love
soulz entwine
hearts beat together as one
this is love
hold it close
nurture and cherish it
nvr let it go
u have truly been blessed

hope u like my poem 4 u darldarl
i love u
muackxz

freedom is a road wif no restrictions

2006-01-21T08:32:00.000+08:00

dear i miss u so much now is only 8.35am cant slp
so write blog lorx. really miss u. sorry worx.......
think today cannot go out. i love u veri much
so here is another poem 4 u my darldarl

i wan 2 believe
in the light i found one day
i serched wif u
there is only one promise
i wanna keep walking
without eva stoping

its like wen i bite into a overripe fruit
i was behaving like a child 2 u
if i hadnt meet u
i couldnt destroy the wall now
i wun forget
the pian i felt tat day
and i dun eva wan 2 go
2 tat place anymore
i could finally walk again
even tough i was torn so apart
noeing tat u were by my side
i could walk again
i can only choose one path
and i hope tat path
is being wif u 4eva
and eva till the end

tml can go out ler wif my darldarl ler

2006-01-20T15:12:00.000+08:00

tml can go out wif u ler
good marhx
miss u alot sia
love u wif all my heart
here is another poem for u

when u wanna cry,i'll always lend u my shoulder

when u wanna hug,i'll always be there 4 u

when u wan someone 2 love , i'll always love u 4eva

wa today damn suay sia

2006-01-19T14:45:00.000+08:00

today play basketball after so long sia
wa lao eh im like noob lorx slack so much
nvm bahx this saterday darldarl go wif mi train
yeah good ritex? i also noe .so cannot slack ler
in studies and in basketball cant wait sia
1 more day den darldarl and mi go out ler
here is anothe poem dedicated 4 darldarl

No one can stop the rising sadnessUntil the very end it falls down, deeperNo matter how painful it is, we can't let goUntil my body rots away, no one can erase itYou, who are mine only, soar high into the skyEmbraced by the earth dyed in a silver shadeSomeday if I look up, you'll be smilingOne day, we'll meet again in that sky----Save your tearsfor the daywhen our pain is far behindon your feetcome with mewe are soldiers stand or dieSave your fearstake your placesave them for the judgement dayfast and freefollow metime to make the sacrificewe rise or fall Thnaks for being my friend!Good luck always!Study hard and everything.

nice marhx?
hope i light a smile on ur face everday
hope tat my voice can cheer u up
hope tat my soul makes u feel peace
ur voice is like a sweet melody 2 mi
ur like a angel send from heaven
hope tat i can be fortunate enough
2 be able 2 make ur dreams come true
and make our fate united as one
definding destiny forging a fate of our own
mine love for u is stronger than fire
a crimson flame tat burns so bright
like a star it glimers in the sky
i belong only 2 one person
not 2 god , not 2 an immortal
but 2 ...............................u
my darldarl u mean alot 2 mi
hope tat the days tat u have spend wif mi
were fill wif joy and happiness and not
sadness and pain........................
i'll be there no matter wat there 2 protect u
there 2 be wif u...............................
always there will the end of time
where space and time breaks
a shadow covers mine road
u were the one tat lit my road
wif happiness and joy once again
and for tat................................
i love u
*
]@C=<3
*

lonly heart waiting 4 u

2006-01-18T15:50:00.000+08:00

Treasured Memories
As each day goeswe all know we bring something alongalong to the next dayMemoriesMay it be good or badworth remembering or notI will still live on with them living in my heart

waiting 4 u darldarl

2006-01-18T14:01:00.000+08:00

darldarl ah i'm waiting 4 u 2 come home misss u alot
wonder wat ur doing? r u having fun ?miss u alot
love u wif all my heart and soul
another poem for u my deardear
~-~ Years may fly ~-~*-* Tears may dry *-*But..........~~~My love for u will never die~~~

today nvr go skul worx =P

2006-01-18T10:39:00.000+08:00

yesterday nite got strange nightmare lehx
damn scared lorx den cannot slp.................
abt my fren come my house ah..den use my msn acc
talk 2 u lehx deardear den thet scold u.....
den u thought it was mi den wan break
wa veri scared lehx ................................
scared till got leg cramp cannot walk 2 skul 2day
hope wun happen but i believe u bahx=)

darldarl i love u so fortunalte have u

2006-01-17T22:10:00.000+08:00

darling a poem for u..........................

our love for each other burns stronger

den the crimson flames tat reside in my heart

only u can fill my world wif colour and emotion

for u are the one the only one tat can be my savior

for i love u

muackxz

im so fortunate

2006-01-17T22:01:00.000+08:00

darling i juz wan u 2 noe how fortunate i am 2 have u by my side
really love u wif my heart and soul , so happy 2 be wif u always
be here 4 u. ur veri important 2 mi and i dun wan 2 lose u
hope tat i can be wif u 4eva love u so much miss u even more

darling i miss u veri much

2006-01-17T17:16:00.000+08:00

deardear wen u free de?
miss u veri much
love u alot
hope u believe
which i believe in u de
i'll nvr leave u de
i promise i swear
miss u alot now
wan 2 be wif u 4eva
next time u free we go out kaes?
love u wif all my heart and soul
take care my dear
[":x:"fate_warheart":x:"]

dream fantasy

2006-01-16T17:54:00.000+08:00

twinkle heart one romantic dream is realizedat the night of winter.twinkle nite when eu are here by my sidetime freezesand surrounds usi love eui wanna tell eu how much ive missed eucuz when eu smile at me i dun feel the cold icy windscuz e warmth of ur heart surrounds mee unforgotten memories of ur love i will cherish 4evatwinkle heart i believe in eueven when winter is here i have no feartwinkle star ur undyin love is stronger den fireas love itself is present makin us together possibletwinkle heart our love 4 each other shines though the winter nitelike the star that cannot be said.i wonder where i'll be without eu "hold me close to ur heart n take me away in ur arms"so I don't need anyone elsetwinkle nite where time shines for usonly when i'm with euSo sweet my dream cuz I love eu.

Beneath a veil so cold,You deeply sleep, all aloneThe melody of prayer; on the lonely fields,a little light shinedI watched as you dreamedYou laughed like a childSo dear, and yet so far -That is the promise of our futureThat one day, on a green morning,One day, we will make it thereBecause in this wintered skyWe still believeFields of HopeOn the day we were born, we were embracedAnd now we search for those gentle hands againThe melody of prayer; one vanishes,And all begins again; a powerless, painful continuationOne day, to that green morning,We'll cross through all these nightsBecause that is the place each one of us searches forNow, within my own heart,I want to keep you warmSo dear, and yet so far -In the name of peaceFields of HopeSo dear, and yet so far -The fields of promiseFields of HopeFields of Hope

i will love u til the end of timeonly u can paint my world with coloursonly u can take away my sorrowsa promise tht will nv lastpromise to love & tk care of meour hearts linked together as one

i wanna tell eu how much ive missed eucuz when eu smile at me i dun feel the cold icy windscuz e warmth of ur heart surrounds mee unforgotten memories of ur love i will cherish 4evatwinkle heart i believe in eueven when winter is here i have no feartwinkle star ur undyin love is stronger den fireas love itself is present makin us together possibletwinkle heart our love 4 each other shines though the winter nitelike the star that cannot be said.i wonder where i'll be without eu "hold me close to ur heart n take me away in ur arms"so I don't need anyone elsetwinkle nite where time shines for usonly when i'm with euSo sweet my dream cuz I love eu.

Now that you are gone i cant stop crying anymoreonly your smile can make me wholeif only you knew how much i need youIs just so sad that your gone once morei keep thinking there is a hope but its not truecause the truth is that your really goneI look upon the sky to find a hopebut i failed to do sowhere are you the one who i love so dearlyi keep searching for you everywherebut to no avail i failed to find youmy time is up i just wish you were hereI just wanna keep on loving you this moreeven if you dont love memy heart is hurt and cant beat anymorei cant see whats coming for mei just wish it was youI just wanna keep on loving you this morewith every last breathe i havei will hold on to the very last hopethat you will save me this morei will believe to the very endcause i love you

The flowers that bloom in winter paints a misty landscape."Strength is tenderness" I sang.For what and for whoDo you continue to fight for now?Life Goes On, be reborn.If we unknowing meet again,I don't want to lose you a second time, butLife Goes On. In this era,As long as I am given life,I catch it with these arms and this chest.Believe in love.I can feel your heart in motion, deep down in your mind and passion.Life goes on and on, we love each other in the sadness of time.Life Goes On, passionately.As long as I am alive,I want to share this light with you again someday.Life Goes On, I want to protect it.Send your prayers towards the sky.In these eyes that have seen true sorrow,Love is overflowing.

Every time I look up into the tear-filled sky,A fickle wave of blue binds my chest.If it's destiny, I will leave behind the daysThat I've fought till the end of sorrow.Life Goes On, passionately.As long as I am alive,Even if I were to lose sight of my real self,Life Goes On, I want to protect it.My heart was shattered,And in these eyes that have seen true sorrow,Love is overflowing.

i call out to eu and put on my very best for eucuz I wanna look my best when I meet euat the very place our hearts touched

Even if my love reaches the breaking point, 1/3 of it won't reachMy true feelings are just spinning on air, my heart isn't even saying "I love you"I tried to spread everywhereThe gift I receive from God here on Earth, but"There's something missing." "There's something I don't understand.I was looking up at the sky, so a message came floating downYou have to find what you're really looking for yourself" (Signed, God)OH, MY GOD!I want to be with someone, but I don't to be with someone.Hey, why in the heart capricious like this?Like a flower on a rainy day, like a flower who's name I don't even know,strongly and softly, I want to bloom.

On this long night, a single voice scatters the dawn with a sighI know I can never regain the time that has slipped awayClosing my eyes off everyday won't get me anywhere.But at least the feeling can keep me in the moment.The ideal is far. But reality is near.Although the wind is strong, I still smile to myself.Hug me tightly, and for sure, I will become strong.Quietly awakening...I always, always wishthat these fleeting thoughtswould reach you...

If it's about things don't go the way I want them toThere are a lot of them, but...Tomorrow a different wind will blowAnd we'll feel it in our hearts with hands wide openThough things beat down on us, though they may torture us.We'll be all rightFine Every time you get rid of your worries,Heart, your heart, will get stronger.The vastness of the sky, and the strength of the sunlightDon't you feel them deep in your heart?Although you may feel tears start to well up, don't give upBelieve in the power of a smileOpen the door of light, don't be afraidI'm sure, I'm sure we'll be all rightWe'll keep walking towards our big dreamso that we can see what new surprises lie aheadThough the road may be long and tortuous, we'll be together,so with the map to our dreams in our hands...

No one can stop the rising sadnessUntil the very end it falls down, deeperNo matter how painful it is, we can't let goUntil my body rots away, no one can erase itYou, who are mine only, soar high into the skyEmbraced by the earth dyed in a silver shadeSomeday if I look up, you'll be smilingOne day, we'll meet again in that sky----Save your tearsfor the daywhen our pain is far behindon your feetcome with mewe are soldiers stand or dieSave your fearstake your placesave them for the judgement dayfast and freefollow metime to make the sacrificewe rise or fall